Boy: n. A noise with dirt on it

I was never having kids. I said that over and over. I didn't want to be a mom. I wasn't going to be good at it. I was afraid my childhood would cause me not to be normal. I didn't even like little kids. They were hard to control. I look back on that now and see how wrong I was. I love all my children. They are beautiful and unique. My girls are amazing, smart, and are going to change the world. And my boy, well he stole my whole heart. 

When Shiloh came along I was scared and afraid of having a girl. Girls get abused. And she's all girl all the time. I wouldn't trade her for anything, but I can't even describe the excitement I felt when I saw that little boy swimming along in my ultrasound. 

I bought every camoflage item I could get my hands on. I bought ball caps, boots, pirate binkies, cars, trucks, trains...well you get the picture. We were going to have a boy!!!

Being a mom has changed me. Healed me. And strengthened me. I love it. The daily routine is constantly shaken up by the funny and amazing things my kids do. 

This is the funniest child I have ever met. He makes me laugh constantly. He always says what he thinks. Occasionally he curses. It's not appropriate, but I can't help myself but to giggle. He's sweet, caring, and tougher than nails. I call his antics Johnnie-isms. They are epic. 

I'm trying so hard to raise all of them in The Lord. And to teach them a servants heart. I want nothing more than to see all of my children saved and doers of the word. I think it's especially important for the boys to learn to be the spiritual leader. And I completely lose my heart every night when I hear Johnnie pray, "God, you are wonderful and beautiful."

Being married has taught me so many things. Mostly how I never want my girls to be treated, and how I want Johnnie to never ever treat a woman. Some days I'm worried that he's surrounded by women too much. The boy wears heels for crying out loud! 

I'm so stupid in love with him. I didn't know I'd say things like, "Get your hands off your weiner," as much as I do. I didn't know peeing outside was a rite of passage. And I didn't know I'd ever love so much. 

This post is mostly about Johnnie. I love them all. But I felt the desire to write about him. I'm the only girl he'll ever love. I make him tell me every day. I'm so proud of him. And I hope that he'll love with his whole heart. That he'll respect everyone, especially whomever he chooses to be with. And I hope he becomes a strong man of faith. 

A man who treats his woman like a princess is proof he was raised by a queen....